Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Freeing the memory

I think people do get accustomed to sadness after an extended period of being depressed, and I guess that applies to me but God must have heard my fervent cries because life is starting to really pick up recently and I've been indulging in a lot of good food and bumming around with the best people of my life. Not to forget, I've been taking photographs almost every single day and I'm really happy about it.

Sorry for the sporadic short posts and I've clean forgotten that my last post was close to a week ago. That's how preoccupied I am right now, but I am not complaining! Promise proper posts when I get back from Cameron Highlands ^_^

 It's been 8 months and I am finally feeling better. I am finally crying lesser, and I am stronger and wiser and I'm burying every remaining bit of love away for good.

  I am freeing the memory.

 Let this be a new beginning xx


Anonymous said...

my birthday is coming soon. and my bf ask me where i want to go. any suggestions like where to go and where to eat?

Fiona Sng said...

I'm not quite sure where you can go since I wouldn't know what you enjoy but for dinner, you can try Pastabrava at Tanjong Pagar if you enjoy pasta. It's fab. Happy birthday in advance!

Anonymous said...

i have been following you for awhile and i really love your photos. I hope life has been treating you well.

I just wanted to ask for some advice, my bf recently broke up with me and all i do is cry because idont have the mood to do anything. How did u get over the breakup? and are u and him still friends?

Fiona Sng said...

Hi there,

Thank you for your kind words. Life is picking up a little, it may be nothing like before, but I am thankful.

I am not the best person to ask when it comes to this, and I'm really really sorry to hear about that. For me.. I spend my days/months crying. It's been 10 months now, and I'm finally slightly better. I don't know if there are others out there like me who are overly emotional and sentimental (not a good thing), but after so much that I've been through, I realize time is really the best cure, and perhaps crying. That's how I got through my days.

As much as you won't have the mood to do anything now, don't pressurize yourself cause it's only natural. Cry when you need to, laugh when you feel like it. Things will get better for you, you really need to BELIEVE in it because I'm such an example. I can walk through it, so can you. I'm not completely over him, and I still miss him every now and then but the ache will cease and your tears will lessen as the days go by. It will be a very gradual thing but while you may be too busy living life, you will realize one day you are so much better than you were before.

Right now, if there is still a way for things to turn around, then fight all you can and don't give up if you really think he is worth it. I fought till I couldn't fight. But if it's something you can't change anymore, learn to let go. Don't beat yourself up. Know that there is someone else going through the same as you, and someone else walked out of it eventually. I don't know if I would be able to fully get over and be happier than I was before, but who's to dictate the future? It's hard, but take heart. Give yourself time okay?

And no, sadly. We grew up together but because of certain complications, he refused to stay friends which hurts the most. I spent my life thinking and knowing he is the best thing I have ever found in life. All I wanted now was to keep this best friend, or friend. He was my best friend and boyfriend, what else could I ask for? But all is...over. You have to learnt to accept.

Hugs. You will get better. Hang in there!

Fiona Sng said...

* to learn to accept.