Friday, December 30, 2011

A year in review

I'm trying to write all of these down but my pen wouldn't flow as fast my thoughts, but even then, my thoughts are incoherent and I am incapable of writing anything good. I am bursting at the seams from the overwhelming pent up emotions. Let this be the most honest review spoken from within.

2011 has been a complex year, and the second half has been filled with too much anguish and extremities. There hasn't been a night without nightmares or quiet moments without tears. From being in the happiest place on earth, to making the worst mistake of my life, to starting uni and having the most major change in my life . Looking back at last year's review, I was so full of drive and love and I had the world in my hands...makes me weep reading those words that were brimming with happiness cause I can barely remember how that feels. I am thankful that I kept my word on being a better person, even if it means improving in minuscule ways. Before this is going to sound like the default speech given onstage by celebrities, I really have to thank each and every person that is still with me on the ride, especially those who went all out to tide me through the worst period of my life cause I probably might have already ended my life if it weren't for you guys.

I have never had the habit of setting typical resolutions but I am sticking to my yearly belief of becoming a better person in any way at all. To refine my thoughts, deeds and actions, to curb my temper and to continue to be honest with myself and the people I love. This time round, I am adding a new resolution for myself: To have more self confidence. To learn to accept compliments showered, to learn to acknowledge my strengths, to deal with pressure, and to believe I am able to accomplish things that I set foot on if I work hard enough for it. I've never really felt that I have serious esteem issues till I've been told and reminded countless times that I just can't see myself the way others see me.

Second half of 2011 has whizzed way too fast, it feels that I've been subconscious all these while. To sum it up, I've been trying real hard to focus on being happy, working hard and partying even harder over the weekends. Otherwise, I sit curled up on my bed and just cry for hours. It hasn't been easy living with a heart that feels too foreign and heavy, but I count my blessings and I give thanks for all that I have and learn to get back up.

I'm a little tight for time considering that I have a couple of loose ends to tie up and a luggage to pack for my trip tomorrow. Still unsure of how to feel about leaving on the 31st for somewhere new...still wishing and wanting to spend it with a certain someone like the previous years. I'm quite excited to be counting down in another new foreign land and to have a new place to add on to my travelogue.

2012, please just be good.

Happy New Year to each and everyone of you (:


Saturday, December 24, 2011

Live for today, we'll dream tomorrow

This year's Christmas is a far cry from the last, or any other previous ones, but I'm relieved I didn't spend my days crying my heart out. In fact, I had one of the best X'mas with people whom I spent 7 years, and some 13 years, growing up with partying in our very own little private space and had the time of our lives together. These people are those whom I'd lay my life down for without a second thought. The father and I had a little heartwarming talk when we had some time alone, and it hurts seeing just how much daddy has aged. To the greatest man of my life, I love you even though you will never see this but I will safeguard you with all that I have. I promise an even better celebration next year, babies (:

Have yourself a Merry Little Christmas!


Saturday, December 17, 2011

Live and let live

Kki Patisserie/ Little Drom Store
7 Ann Siang Hill
Contact: 6225 6650

I'd urge everyone to try Cugini at least once, especially pasta lovers (and I'm a major one at that). All pastas at Cugini are handmade by the italian chefs and I like how every strand is thick and chewy and it's nothing like other pastas that I've ever tried.

Cugini Italian Restaurant
87 Club Street #01-01

This month has been filled with lots of Christmas shopping for myself- perfect excuse since X'mas and CNY are looming! Retail therapy is therapeutic for a reason anyway and nothing beats being greeted by the postman in the morning with a huge parcel ^^ Time to sell off some preloved clothes soon. Before I forget, my dad and I would be putting up one last wall frame and I'm done with my room revamp.. However, I'm considering putting up a wall mural now. We'll see how it goes! I'll do a room tour and some of the products I used, previously requested by readers, when all is done. I know this room revamp project has been ongoing for a tad too long but I believe good things are worth the wait.

Hope everyone has been well! xx

Monday, December 12, 2011

Summer adventure in the forest

TL and I donning our fairy wings which we got at a steal for approx 2.50sgd each (:

I need to set some time aside to do a reflective letter for the year 2011.. how time flies. School's out for now and I am in the midst of mapping out my holidays and the list of things I would like to accomplish before the new year begins. Hopefully I'd stick to my to-do-list and to finish up on a few novels that have been placed on hold for too long.

The weekends had been amazing, from going on shopping spree, beating every single race in Need For Speed, to meeting crazy lovely people at a gay club, telling me that I'm pretty and another who grabbed my hair and said that I have crazy smooth hair.... Might have been flattered if they are straight. It was even better meeting an old friend whom I haven't seen for 4years and the first thing he did was to wrap me up in an embrace. To top it off, X'mas came a little earlier for me this year when Mr Santa presented me with my first Tiff & Co! (: Thank you, D.

Cheers to December <3