Fosters

Half a dozen escargots $13



Carpetbag Steak with Fresh Oysters $35. My favourite combination of steak + seafood. Love how cutting up the steak revealed the oysters inside, and "successfully surprising" myself.





Gratinated Baked Fish $25



I can't even really describe the taste of the food now cause it's been so many months (October!) but I remembered stepping out feeling so full and pleased with my main course, and the escargots! Twice, I went to Fosters wanting to have some scones but didn't manage to have any, and we ended up having dinner there. One of these days I'm going to head back alone with a nice book and eat my fill.



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There's just so much on my mind I don't even know where to begin. The downs are so bad I should just kill myself, but my insecurities are already doing a fucking peachy job at that. Maybe it's February pulling a stunt on me. Used to be my favourite month of the year, and now it's one of the worst period of my life. It's heartbreaking on so many levels and I should have been better at dealing with this, but I'm not. Good things are worth the wait, I know and I'm willing to but I just don't know what I'm waiting for. There're so many issues I don't even know how to go about solving them, and so many things I want to tell but I can't. I fear experiencing happiness. For everytime I say "I'm really happy", I get thrown back into the dark after awhile.

Always knew I'm never one who deserves the good things in life.


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Wiener Family

When I first met Rebs half a year ago for a blogshop shoot, she was telling me about wanting to engage someone to do a shoot for her mother and their dog, Reefer, because Reef is already very old and the family has rarely taken photos together, much less with Reef. We spoke about this a few times because she was shortlisting a few photographers in mind, and the last thing I expected was that she'd actually ask me to do the shoot for her. I'm very touched because she wanted very much for her family to meet me, after having told her mom quite a bit about me and knowing how important this shoot is to them. Of all people, she actually picked me.

Thank you so much sweetheart, you have no idea how much that meant to me and how much I love your house and your mom for making me feel so at ease (: She's one hell of a hot mama at this age. I'm just really glad these photos would serve as a lifetime's keepsake for the Wiener family. Becs, I know you will read this. I miss you so much! Spain is taking you away for way too long, please come back soon! I'm so not used to not having seen you for more than a month. ):

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I think I've kinda lost track of time quite a bit when I'm so caught up with everything that's happening around me and my own emotions. There's just so much I'd want to rant and to seek solace in, but this space is no longer an outlet for me to bare my heart out to anymore. So much has happened over the past two weeks, my life is changed forever and nothing feels the same anymore. Each day, my emotions are being taken on a roller coaster ride and today, I've decided that it is best leaving certain things unsaid.

Things will be okay in the end, I've just gotta get that drilled in my head.

I've no idea how to deal with this.

xx

Summer Spell (part three)

The beauty beneath the sea in Redang

Here are some photos I absolutely adore from the underwater camera. I'm so glad for its existence even though I complain about its quality more than anything else, I'm thankful for without it, I would be struggling to remember the underwater beauty of all the  seas I've been into.

Lots of dead corals there. I felt really guilty cause I heard or read somewhere before that sunblock actually kills the corals.. I was covered in sunblock from top to toe. ): Hope that's not true!

Trekking the shoreline and cutting our feet so badly while trying to make out way out to see the baby sharks that we got so pissed we walked back after walking a long way out into the sea. Came back to the shore with grazed knees from the rocks beneath and very sore feet from cuts and a bite on my thigh by an unidentified creature.

KPO fishy

Feeding bread loafs

Very disturbed and attracted to this brain looking coral or something that looks a lot like it glows in the dark.

<3 <3 <3

I thought this was a pretty amusing picture with a stranger's bikini bottom there. It's quite disturbing and attention seeking at the same time.

My turn to feed them!

So.. despite being warned its illegal to do that, I caught a fish with the plastic bag used to contain the bread. I didn't kill it of course, I just wanted to challenge if I could swoop a fish up fast enough, and I managed to do that twice with different fishes! ^_^

And yes, the most fascinating part and the highlight of the snorkelling trip. This swarm of fishes, I'm unclear of it's breed but it only lingers around the shore and it surrounds people. Too fast to touch or  to snap a photo with them. See how they surround people standing at the shore!

So that finally sums up my Redang trip in September 2012. Posting these pictures in the middle of the night just makes me miss the place even more. I hope you guys like the pictures, and do visit Redang after the monsoon period! The marine life really puts the ones in Phuket to shame. As much as I would love to dive next time round (since I've snorkeled way too many times), the thought itself frightens me. But I would probably do so the next time round I get to visit a beach location. (: I almost forgot to mention just how much I love it that they are taking very strict measures and precautions to preserve the marine life there and the people take pride in doing so. (,:

The next few posts would probably be more on some of my personal favourite lookbooks shot in 2012. It's a little upsetting that I don't have too much of a personal life to share about because I'm so overwhelmed with work, but I do have more (overdued) posts to share, so I'll put them up accordingly! I'm much more updated on my instagram because it's so convenient and fast, so if you'd like you may follow me on instagram -@smittenpixels.

Have a happy mid-week, y'all!

xx